Monday, February 7, 2011

The day before~


I found this picture of me the day before I had my little monkey in 2002...i really loved the last couple of days. I woke up the next morning at 6:30 to go potty and had an amazing popping sound that my husband heard in the next room. This was the beginning. 6 hours later I had a beautiful little girl! My hubby took this picture with out me knowing! He didnt show me this for a long time. now i love it!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Babies....all around me




For some reason I am in a strange ache right now. There are new babies in lot of wombs, nursing babies, baby animals around me right. I haven't had that "ache" in a while. Both of my sisters are in the stage where they have or will have newborns.When i was pregnant with my kiddos I so badly wished I could have my children close to my two sisters kid. How did all this time go by and now I'm a little pouty about the whole thing. I am so excited for both of them , but still a little sad that i am not closer to them, mother to mother. I feel more and more like the WAY OLDER sister that will have teenagers before there kids are potty trained. I so have the baby aches.. weird I know and for some reason it has been hard on me to see the age of 35 go by so fast and 36 be here in a few months. It is the age of no more babies. I need to learn to give my loves and aches away and love the new little nephews I have and hope for a niece or two! I found some lost picture of Adam and Arika the day Ibrought home Adam on Easter of 2005...i so love the labor and delivery of babies...miracle at its finest. I'm saying a little prayer for myself that i find a place for this ache. Love Lisa

Friday, June 4, 2010

I think I can!, I think I can!




Well I visited with Miss. Ranelle yesterday about being a Doula. I had such a great time and our kids played so nice together at the park. She has been a Doula for fifteen yrs. and works a lot with Mountain Midwifery and Longmont Doulas. After our talk I came home and added up the numbers and I KNOW i can afford it, I KNOW i can easily read through the material, I KNOW i can get to all the training. BUT I'M sooooooooooo afraid of starting something new. The shy weird teenager comes out and I loss my confidence to easily....How do you find strange women that will let you in on there very own miracle. I need three active births to get all my qualifications done. I have two years to finish after I register with D.O.N.A.

When I start something like this I want to be done successfully as soon as possible. If I hoof it I could be a registered Doula by January or as least under a years time. I am so excited yet intimidated. I got on the phone yesterday with the trainer, Penny that will be here in September and she was so encouraging and excited for me ( it was more fun that she had an English accent!) I can see my self being a Doula so easily yet I have to choose to get over the hurdles in my mind. Well world wish me luck!